Hello my love, is anyone out there? All i know right now is that I’m IN here, in me. The last year has been pretty intense for me. I lost everything, i had to. Now I’m standing on the cliff edge wanting to jump yet not knowing why. The jump could take me anywhere. I havent really painted for 3 years and that creative calling is screaming inside, let me out, let me show you, let me show you whats really going on inside you!
I put it off with this and that excuse, not the right space, the right environment, my materials always seem to be somewhere else, on the move, restless, hearing the call deep inside. Where to rest and allow this flow to express itself. Be quiet, it will reveal itself, soon soon, maybe never ha ha but i will be patient as i observe my playing out of nothings quite right. I’m lost and afraid, all the more reason to paint, to share, to allow my love to shine in the world.
I went to see my brother the other day, he lives in a psychiatric care home, it’s the nicest one he’s lived in so far. Anyway, his room was filthy, his bathroom even worse. So i spent the next 3 hours doing a thorough clean and wow did it feel good! He was so grateful, the energy shifted on so many levels in there. Our love and gratitude made a blend of harmony and the rooms reflected that. It was palpably lighter. This small jester changed the world. What a great reminder of how powerful we are.
The focus i have the last couple of days is to put myself out there as a therapist again. A guide. I’m going to merge my two websites. This feels daunting as i seem to have completely forgotten how to work my webpages. I find myself here, sharing with you, and that feels good. Thank you beloved, for every now, I’m alive and I’m present, that is everything. The rest will come, including the effort needed. I love you 💚
